I haven't posted in a while. I'm still struggling with my weight and the problems that come with carrying so much weight. I really don't think most people get that weight loss is a real struggle for the people that have to do it. Its really hard I'm if you were an alcoholic you could go to a program and stop drinking. Its just really hard to look at food as fuel and not comfort because I ate a lot of times when I was stressed and need to feel better.

pictures of my reward

Rewards

I decided to give myself incentives to go to the gym after every twelve visits I get a reward the first reward I earned was a pair of crocs. My next goal is ten songs from i tunes for my next twelve visits. I 'm trying to make working out a habit and keep myself motivated in the process and keep myself looking forward to something good if I keep consistent with going to the gym.

workin it out

I've been going to the gym about three times a week and working out its been good been riding the bike for about 30min. I'm going to start strength training next week about three times a week and do cardio three times a week. I' ve been taking longs walks like I used and that has felt really good.

I've fallen of the the lifestyle change wagon. I haven't been mindful about what I've been eating lately. I really know that I have to make this change to safe my life but its really hard. Changing habits and starting new one takes time and I have to be patient with myself while I make the necessary adjustments.

I don't do sick very well. I don't like feeling out of control and that there is nothing that I can do. I need to make changes because this not feeling well is for the birds and my quality of life and that of the people that love me would really suffer If I don't take charge of my health and well being.

Reason why I need to change my lifestyle

Reason number one because my body can't take this weight anymore. Because I'm overweight I've developed high blood pressure,sleep apnea, a hernia,losing the weight will lessen the effects of all these issue and it will give a better quality of life. Its my responsibility to save my life no else can do it for me I must make the change to save my self which include regular follow ups with my doctor and taking my meds and making sure I continue to make healthy choices in my diet, and ecercise at least thirty minutes a day.

change

The meaning "change" according to the dictionary is to make or become different and to alter or to modify. I constantly think about change as is relates to me and my relationship with food and my relationship with my body. My relationship with food has been one of comfort and understanding in time when I have felt lost or alone and tense food has always seed to comfort me. It made me feel good, but now I need to find new ways to find comfort and stress relief.

Lifestyle change

This lifestyle change thing is the hardest thing that I've tried to do. Most people think that making a change is easy you just do it but its not that simple. I am trying to change something that is a fundamental part of of my life and that is my relationship with my body and food that put in it.